Awareness is Pain

“Kiya Zaroorat kih bakhabar thehrein, Aagayi bhi azab hoti hai”. That’s Urdu poetry and its English translation is that there is no need to be aware, awarness is pain. In that poetry awareness has a bit different meaning. Awareness means knowing about what people actually think about you, awareness means that how much you’re surrounded by selfish and insincere people. That’s why they say that writing is painful because writing gives awareness. Awareness about many hurting facts and realities. Not sometimes but most of times is unawareness seems like blessing. Don’t you think that? I believe that awareness is blessing if you’re surrounded by unaware people. If you’re surrounded by cruel and dishonest people. Yeah, its right that awareness is pain.

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Today I went Islamabad for necessary medical check up. I needed to be excited and relieved. I needed to be happy and pleased but right am feeling worst headache of my life. Today was a busy day. Traveling isnt easy thing in Pakistan. Whatever I’m supposed to be satisfied after a hard and rough day but feeling loneliness. I don’t have one to share my happiness but internet where I’ve some people with them I can share my joy. I believe that they would be happy for me. We all know that happiness increases when we share it and grief decreases when we share it. I couldn’t increase my joy. Something or much thing is missing. I need to take rest. I need some magic words. I need some care. But also I need to be grown that I could understand realities and facts that hurt.

Last night I was so happy when I saw October 2014 EPS TOPIK passer list. Now I’m a passer officially. Now myself and anyone else can see my name on OEC website. 187 applicants passed this month. So now 1006 applicants have passed the test. Now on Monday they will send my medical reports to OEC and if report show that I’m fit then I’ll be able to submit application for job.

Most Favorite Pop Song 2014

Ary abhi to party shru hoi hai…Jis ko dance nein karna wo ja kar apni bhains charae…ha ha ha. Best pop song ever listened. Even you don’t understand Hindi or Urdu but still you can enjoy the song because of rocking music. Lyrics is amazing. That’s weekend song but applicable whenever you’re tensed. lol. Khubsurat is a beautiful movie. I’ve not watched the film intentionally so I think I shouldn’t write much about but I’m not hesitant to write that I’ve not disliked Khubsurat. If you understand Hindi or Urdu, or you watch Bollywood films then that movie would be a good choice for you. Simple but interesting. Not much glamorous and high budget but still has some professionalism involved which impresses a movie geek.

House of Wax-An Amazing Horror

I watched that movie many weeks ago but I really loved that one and still I can’t forget it. House of Wax is like other common horror movies especially more like Wrong Turn but this film didn’t get me bored. I enjoy watching that one. Also I’m not hesitant to suggest that one to you guys. If you love horror movies or you wanna watch a good movie then it is your thing. Especially when you’re home alone then this movie gonna really scare you. You need to be brave enough to watch House of Wax alone. A good one for weekend night.

Do You Wanna Learn Korean?

I can teach Korean. Wherever you’re, despite your location, I can teach you Korean language. As you guys know that I had been learning Korean for five months and now I know this sweet language enough so I can teach others too especially I can really help about preparation for EPS TOPIK. You’re in Pakistan or any other part of the world, now you can learn Korean at your home easily in a friendly environment.

That won’t be free of cost but I assure you that fee would be nothing almost. I’m sure you guys must know about online classes. That would be sufficient for me and student too. Interested guys can contact me for further details. More you should know that Korean is a sweet language which is so easy to learn. That’s not complicated and difficult like Chinese or Japanese.

Long Time…

Long time, I’ve not write something. I’ve not expressed my feelings, my thoughts and my activities. I was enjoying satisfaction and freedom which I had been passing through for months. Writing isnt easy. That makes you softer and easy to hurt so I kept away myself from that. In past days I’ve not watched movies much but one or two. Life wasn’t in control but now things are different. I’ve started to dream again. I’ve started to live again even still I need to be wishful and hopeful, still I’ve to find job and wait for Korea thing. Still I ll have to take medical check up for Korea in few days. After passing the check up I’ll be available to Korean employers. I’m very excited about that thing because it would be a turning point of my life. A result to my struggle of years. That’s not just five months struggle but it contains years, I’ve been doing my best but God always has right time to do things. Korea thing will open many doors such as love, relationship, job, freedom etc. I need your good wishes, guys. So don’t forget me in your prayers. Now you’ll see posts and movie reviews from me continuously.


First of all thanks a lot to all Might Allah who helped me to made that happen. Even I’m an aspiring writer but I couldn’t write that how much happy I was when I saw score after right after taking the test. Past months were so hard so passing the test making me feel amazing. I was feeling like a lady who had given birth to a sweet baby but my “baby born” after five months just LOL I was flying in air. Not only I passed the test but secured good marks that are 144/200.

Last night I was in Islamabad with primary school fellow. His place was just few steps away form test centre. It rained early morning and late night which made Islamabad weather colder and loved it. After passing the test I was dying to come home to chill, to joy, to dance and to share my happiness. I don’t know what happen in future but am happy enough for now. Thanks a lot to God and thanks a lot to everyone wished me luck and prayed for my success.